Help. Am i supposed to feel this way?!

Patient: I am only 15. I don’t know who my friends Truly are. Its like they just pretend to like me and when im at home nobody talks to me or texts me. Im not clever and am alwayS being lecturedd at. Honestly i just ask my self why am i here. I guess you can say i have a low self asteem and no motivation. Its like if i killed myself everyone would care all of a sudden. But anyway im here to ask if im truly depressed or just my age and may it be linked with my condition that disables me from things and kinda makes me feel like im living a lie because i havent told my friends etc…

Doctor: